Good Girl Gone Bad

Vogue Shoot by Steven Klein

Empire State of Mind

Jay Z and Alicia Keys..... This song fills me with the urge to run away to New York and be who I've always wanted to be.

But when I try and think who I am I don't actually know so I don't think New York would help me....... Its a nice idea though.

Ralphie....

Missing Mojo

I've lost my mojo please return to me asap.

Maybe he has it????????

Ralphie.......

*well that's not fair

he has plenty

cotton candy

1. I put pink in my hair.

2. Still don't look like Dree Hemingway

a tiger never changes its stripes

Hey scorned mistress, I like your hair.

morbid musings

I am fine.

I am fine.

No I don't want to talk about it.

I just want my hands to stop shaking long enough that I can light a damn cigarette.

And then I'm driving and a fucking power-line explodes and it's like the whole world is falling apart, it's just coming down in a shower of sparks.

"How about a smile sugar?"

I can show some teeth but I don't think it's quite the same thing when the gesture doesn't touch your eyes.

How unnatural it seems to smile right now.

I came to this bar so that I could make like the rest of you and forget for a little while.

Because aren't they all here to drink and smoke and snort and swallow and lie about their age/occupation/marital status?

Sins like bandages.

Make me feel okay.

But you'll pop the stitches tomorrow.

For now I'll glare at strangers in a bar because, yes, it will crack my face if I smile and what if all the other cracks join up and I can't hold it together anymore.

I will remember this time because this was when I realised that people don't glue right back together and that the future is probably going to be a whole lot shittier than the past.

And by arriving at this conclusion I had joined the group that is no group at all...

ALL THE LONELY PEOPLE.

le cinéma et la mode -where the wild things are